..We must pay much closer attention to what we have heard, so that we do not drift away from it… – Hebrews 2:1, NASB
With the innate intelligence God had given us and the vast amount of knowledge we have acquired in this world, we oftentimes tend to question the faithfulness of the Almighty One, and worse, even His existence.
At some point in our lives, we might think into consideration the possibilities of the inexistence of God. We may be absorbed to the idea of thinking, “What if God’s blessings and the miracles that we have experienced are simply mere coincidences?”
Personally, I have experienced this struggle many times. My so-called intellect sometimes gets the better of me to the point that I foolishly demand logical answers to certain questions that we mere humans can’t simply comprehend. When facing this strife, I feel ashamed of myself, thinking that maybe I am not a “real” believer for having this “imperfect” faith.
I came upon a familiar biblical figure to most of us, Thomas, one of Jesus’ disciples, who doubted the testimonies of other disciples about the resurrection of Christ. I reflected upon his special mention in John 20 and realized the similarities of his doubts to that of mine. Interestingly, the Bible does not fail to show us other examples of God’s people facing these trials. The book of Job tells us of a righteous man’s trials of faith. In Matthew 11 and Luke 7, the imprisoned John the Baptist came to the point of doubting whether Jesus was really the Messiah or not. Amazingly, Jesus did not reply by rebuking but by telling His disciples to report to John the miracles He was performing, and even going on to say that John the Baptist was the greatest man ever born (Matthew 11:11).
I came to the realization that having doubts does not signify that we are not “real” Christians. For this Christian strife is not uncommon to us believers. Instead, doubt is a sign of our sinful human nature, a sign of our imperfectness. And though doubts may lead us astray, they may even lead to a stronger faith in God.
Jude 22 tells us to “be merciful to those who doubt,” whether it be others or just ourselves.
And if we have these doubts about our faith, why don’t we doubt our doubts instead? Most of the time, our doubts don’t suggest better alternative explanations to our questions anyway.
Finally, I believe that if it’s logic that makes us have uncertainties in our belief, it’s wisdom that will bring us back to believing.
For the Lord gives wisdom; from His mouth come knowledge and understanding. – Proverbs 2:6
Real wisdom is Godly wisdom, manifested in our acknowledgment of God’s existence and His faithfulness in our lives.
“What may be known of God is manifest in them for God has shown it to them. For since the creation of the world his invisible attributes are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even his eternal power and Godhead, so that they are without excuse.” – Romans 1:19-20
Phil is an aspiring Mechanical Engineer from the Southern part of the Philippines. He was named after the Bible verse Philippians 4:6 which was the verse his mother held on to while he was in her womb. During his free time, Phil reads criminal, suspense and psychological novels.