I was 19 when I read the book of Joshua Harris entitled “I Kissed Dating Goodbye” but even before that, I was already embracing the “Purity Culture” around me.
I don’t know how to sugar coat frustrations, fears, doubts and all those moments I asked Him, “Why not me yet, Lord?” “How much contentment should I lay on the table so you could give me what I am asking?”
“Your eyes saw my unformed body; all my days were written in Your book and ordained for me before one of them came to be.” – Psalm 136:16
As I lay there at the middle of the street with my shield ripped apart,
Tears fell from my eyes when I saw Defeat start reigning in my heart.
You made me feel I am worthless and I will never be happy. You made me feel that time and time again, history repeats itself — and no guy will ever choose to stay. After all the hurts and grieving I went through, and all those monsters I have to deal with for the past months, I can now finally say…
Fellowship and doctrine matter for me, and for many years that I have been moving, I was able to meet different kinds of ‘Jesus’.